Everyday is a struggle. An uphill battle. A war rages inside. An illness that began when I was just 18 years old. An illness that keeps me homebound and sometimes bedridden. An illness that brings guilt and anger. Anger that I cannot be who I want to be. Anger that I could give so much more. Guilt that I have robbed my family of a normal life. Guilt that I have taken a life from my husband, a much deserved life, that he sacrifices everyday for me. An illness not life threatening, but debilitating.
Today I am thankful for the moment I can spend soaking in sunshine. In this moment He ministers to my heart, my soul. I am reminded that he is in control and gone before me. He has a perfect plan for my life. I surrender. The war ceases and I accept His grace. His sovereignty. I am filled with His peace.
By His grace alone,
Shelly
By His grace alone,
Shelly
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Jeremiah 29:11
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ReplyDeleteI am always so thankful for sunshine and how God uses it. Sounds crazy but something so simple can truly make a difference. I can't imagine the struggles you face with your illness.
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